Signing on!

1:40 AM

At (probably) the messiest corner in Cervini at the moment

 

Tonight, I have decided to start writing a journal again. I actually don’t have the fanciest idea on how to write something like this again – the last time was a little more than five years back, which I had decided to stop doing since my writing became a little too personal that I came to near paranoia that someone might find my DIY-(design-it-yourself)-National-Bookstore-big-notebook-journal and know so many of my skeletons in the closet. Then there also is my uncalled for self-consciousness and insecurity on my writing style, form, grammar, and the like that had been keeping me from being the writer that I was – or at least, I, and a few others, thought I was – years back. But hey, I thought to myself, what the hell! Undoubtedly, I will never be able to write again if I let pesky trivial fears like that keep me from doing so. And I have realized just now that I seriously miss making art – or at least something that is worth taking time to read – out of the simplest words in my limited vocabulary.

Come to think of it, I probably won’t be able to produce anything near artistic soon – my mind and hands are probably just too rusty after years of writing hiatus. But it’s fine. I plan to just write away anyway. I think, and hope, creativity will make friends with me again on the way.

Anyway, what to say on this first entry…

Well, I am actually kind of happy for I’ve finished, after almost a year of trying – long story why – reading a book again (The Class by Erich Segal, which is one of the reasons that lead me to this old hobby once more). 

I am also hopeful about the coming week for I have a feeling that there are many a good things and opportunities just waiting for me to discover. This feeling has actually no proof at all but, hey, that’s why it’s called a feeling, right?  To me, it’s just great to feel that way, after days, or even weeks of feeling the opposite. Moreover, this, I believe, is simply the best way to welcome a new week – being optimistic.

And starting on a positive note is probably the way to start writing again. I guess I’m on a right timing then. I hope this keeps on.