On nothing…
At this very moment, I suck at life.
Officially, I hate where I am right now. I’m stuck. And I’m stuck real good.
While the people around me are going on with their lives, getting better, stronger, faster or whatever by the minute, I’m just here slacking my life away. I’ve been putting off everything to later, like all the supposed blog posts here – I currently got four or five in draft. It’s like I’ve put my life on hold or something.
And now, I feel that I’ve dug the rut so deep I don’t know how to get up. I am so behind I have not the faintest idea how to catch up or even where to start. Somebody please save me. Get me out and get me out of here quick. I seriously wish that life is that easy. That an actual somebody would just come tomorrow and help me up and out of this. But yeah, life is no fairy-tale or movie. I know that however badly I wish for that help, nobody’s going to come. It’s just me. And no, I’m not turning all emo and saying I’m all alone in this world and blah blah. I’m saying only me can get me out of all this. And I got to really believe that.
Too bad at this very moment, I don’t think I can. So I guess the only thing to do is to sleep on this. And hope that maybe tomorrow, I wake up with stronger faith in me.
Oh my sweet hope,
cradle me tonight as I sleep.
And tomorrow, wake me
up from this bitter slumber.
